Well Folks ive done it again my supid ass has pissed off my best friend yet again.... sometimes i wonder if i should even have friend all i ever seem to do is fuck up and piss them off this time it wasnt intentional at all aparently me liking seans ex is a pissoffing offence... i so fucking sorry if my personal feelings get in the way of something that i thought didnt exist anymore....... if he still loves her then he need to everyone else know because he sure dosent act like it and what really pisses me off is hes starting a double standard with me (ITS OK FOR FITZ "a mutual friend ,hard to explaine to anyone who dosent know him" to date her, but not me); and his reasoning is that if he had a problem with it fitz would not do it but somehow im this huge asshole that wouldnt respect my best fucking friend in the whole god damn world the only person i would ever want to live with me besides bekah. The person i hold more respect to than myself, my family, or any of my other friends.  The one person i thought would never judge me... so much for some of that respect....  dont get me wrong i still respect him but .... i would like for him to talk to me if he has a problem with it at the party he said he didnt care that i made out with susan and knew i was trying to get her to have a three-way with me and radwa.... anyways the party was kick ass we unintetionally had a 7 min in heaven room b/c terra and her boyfriend (Chris i think) made out in there along with fitz and susan but i had fun.... maybe ill go and impale myself on something sharp....

I have come to an idea.....

theses songs kinda describe me right now...

imagine theres no heaven its easy if you try no hell below us above us only sky imagine all the people living for today imagine theres no countries it isnt hard to do nothing to kill or die for no religon too imagine all the people living life in peace you may say im a dreamer but im not the only one i hope someday youll join us when the world is one imagine all the people sharing all the world you may say im a dreamer but im not the only one i hope someday youll join us when the world is one imagine no possessions i wonder if you can no need for greed or hunger from brotherhood of man imagine all the people sharing all the world you may say im a dreamer but im not the only one i hope someday youll join us when the world is one

"imagine" by A Perfect Circle

"A.D.I.D.A.S." By Korn

she put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette she broke his heart he spent his whole life trying to forget we watched him drink away his pain a lil at a time but he could never get drunk enough to get her off his mind until the night he put that bottle against his head and pulled the trigger he finally drank away her memorie life is short but it was bigger than the strenght he had to get up off his knees we found him with his face down in the pillow with a note that said ill love her till i die and when we buried him beneith the willow the angels sang a wiskey lulaby... lalalalalalala lalalalalalala lalalalalalala lalalalalalala .

the rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself for years and years she tried to hide the wiskey on her breath she finally drank the pain away a lil at a time but she never could get drunk enought to get him off her mind until the night she put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger finally drank away his memorie life is short but this time it was bigger than the strength she had to get off her knees they found her with her face down in the pillow clinging to his picuture for dear life we layed her next to him beneith the willow while the angels sang a wiskey lulaby lalalalalalalala lalalalalalalala

lalalalalalalala lalalalalalalala

lalalalalalalala lalalalalalalala

lalalalalalalala lalalalalalalala

"Wiskey Lulaby" by ?

if anyone knows who sings this song please let me know later days

Today is my fuck the world day i hate everything.... i just want to be alone right now but i can never seem to get alone time without being bothered by someone i started overnights last night i think that is why im so fucking cranky but im going to go now and i dont know hit something later scooter